I just can't keep posting stuff to remind myself how shitty my life was and continues to be. It doesn't make me "want to be better" or motivate me in any way. I look back at my older posts and just see failure after failure in my life. I'm 22 years old, single, no college degree, and barely making it on my own with two roommates. On top of that, I'll probably be unemployed this time Monday, so nothing even matters anymore.
I don't see a point. I have 12 "followers" whom probably don't read this, and multiple other readers who only use it as a way to stalk and keep tabs on me. I don't need that in my life. I have a crush on a new girl right now but I to damn shy to bring it up because of my own insecurities and her being the most out of my league, ever. Life just keeps finding new ways to screw me over. Financially, mentally, emotionally, and on occasion, physically. I'm done!
This is officially the last blog post Zach Love will ever post on this site. Nobody comments, nobody shows concern for my issues, nobody tries. So why should I? I've only been pushing through because financially I'm doing great and I'm on that 116, if anyone gets that reference (christian rappers use it to represent Romans 1:16).
I'm sorry. I've lost a lot of my friends working this month and now I'll be unemployed next week probably. Life is a shit storm, but when is it now? And now you all think I'm a whiny bitch boy who doesn't know how to grow up and act my age. Yeah, I probably am too. Or I'm just depressed as shit right now and don't know what to do.
If I'm not losing, I'm still losing.
PS If you know me in real life, you obviously know you can keep in touch that way, I'm just done posting these stupid blog posts which plague my life with negative reminders of things I already know.
Goodbye forever (again).