So I woke up on the 9th entirely ready for my weekend to come! It was going to be great! I was meeting up with Caleb, Astrid, Tori, Carolyn, and Amanda (just a few of my awesome homies) and I would follow them to Ahn!Con since I didn't know where it was. We got there and met up with my girlfriend Alex and hit the Con!
I wish I had video of our great time, but alas I don't! All I can say is after the opening ceremonies, we had a blast! I KNOW, I KNOW! I want to tell you more, but words just don't do justice! Sure, I could saw we watched some anime, played some Smash Bros and Mario Kart Double Dash in the gaming rooms, played Naughty Ninja Olympics (this is a 17+ convention, remember that), played a pairing anime game, entered and lost a Smash Bros tournament (I gave it my all, as Little Mac, I promise!), and made some awesome new friends, while also spending to much money supporting vendors.
I guess that could cover the entire weekend, but to elaborate or go into detail is just...It just wouldn't be well depicted. Guys, you need to see Ahn!Con for yourselves, because it was a really great time, and it changed my life forever. I know you probably expected more from this post, with how I've played it up on my second blog site, but I just don't have much to say about it. I can tell you that I definitely want to be attending the 2016 Ahn!Con, which is confirmed.
HERE! Take some photos to appease your appetites for entertainment!
There you have it fellers! Ahn!Con 2015 all wrapped up in a cute little package of 3 1/2 paragraphs! WHOOT WHOOT!
The next thing I wanted to talk about were the after affect thoughts/opinions I had formed. Buckle up, things are about to get radical! So I was just doing my thing at the con, but slowly and surely, I started to see things and differ from myself in what I believe.
Ahn!Con, for those who don't know, is a convention that supports gay art and literature. Now I know that I probably have, if not a large or even small, a "following" of religious readers, who read my posts. I challenge every single one of you to comment telling me how I'm wrong. Please, do that! Just make sure you read the rest of this post first. You might feel convicted.
So I met some great people (who shall remain nameless for now) over the weekend and they've been really fun to hang out with and get to know. I even consider them friends now. However, they've chosen to life a life dating the same sex. Now, for me personally, I don't care what they do, I'm not their momma, and I'm sure as hell not gonna try to tell em' that.
In the opening ceremony, the speaker, Peter Pixie, said that this weekend is full of people with different beliefs and sexualities, but nobody judges anyone else. I saw that was true all weekend. Nobody cared about anything more than how great the other person was, and that really moved me. Sure, it's still a convention, so there will be games, shows, etc...But it is a 17+ convention so you can speak freely and BE YOURSELF. Nobody was judged, from what I saw. And I would be a fool to have judged anyone.
Now you can start throwing the bible at me, go ahead! If I give Satan an inch, he'll take a mile. I'm so getting swooned into a life I don't need to dabble in, whatever. BULL SHIT. You think I'm going to let one weekend change who I am? NOPE. However, it OPENED MY EYES to something I was previously blind to.
Have you ever listened to a church sermon and it just REALLY spoke to you, on a level so deep, you felt convicted enough to take action? This weekend was like that, each day was a slowly rising tidal wave of information, and I left feeling so convicted, I had to take action.
As a Christian, I am supposed to believe that if you're homosexual, no matter the situation, you are instantly deemed unworthy of heaven, in your sinful lifestyle, and you are tossed aside and thrown into the deepest depths of hell, like some murderer or doer of dark witchcraft. After this weekend...I'm starting to question that. I just thought that because it was a basic thing on the outlining pages, in the syllabus, for "Being a successful Christian".
Well I don't think that's true. Take a look at this...
Trust me guys, don't think of me so foolish as to not do my research before posting this opinion. If you look in the Old Testament, you'll see ONLY examples of rape when referenced in alignment to homosexuality. Now that flat out tells me that if I'm a Christian, I have to fully believe that gay sex, or any form of anal for that matter, is a sinful act and will get me thrown into hell without any review or second thoughts from God when I stand before him.
However, only one verse in the entire bible (please tell me if I'm wrong) says ANYTHING about being with the same sex in a relationship for, not sexual purposes, but for companionship! That would be 1 Timothy 1:8-10. I will type it out below, just in case you didn't get to read it very well in the picture above.
"8 Now we know that the law is good, if one uses it lawfully, 9 Understanding this, that the law is not laid down for the just but for the lawless and disobedient, for the ungodly and sinners, for the unholy and profane, for those who strike their fathers and mothers and murderers, 10 The sexually immoral, men who practice homosexuality, enslavers, liars, perjurers, and whatever else is contrary to sound doctrine, in accordance with the gospel of the glory of the blessed God with which I have entrusted."
There, in verse ten, it says "men who PRACTICE homosexuality"...Now that's the closest I could find to anyone flat out saying BEING gay is wrong in Gods eyes. Even then, it doesn't punch me in the face as proof or actual truth. I have to take as what it was, in accordance to when it was written, and assume that this basically means that sexual actions in homosexuality are wrong. I challenge anyone to call me daft, a fool, or anything else, but if you do that, give me PROOF.
I'm looking for answers, not name calling. So please give me any you have, so I can reference them. I just don't see how the God I know, one so loving and compassionate, caring for every soul on this planet, so matter their crimes/sins, can justly condemn someone to hell for wanting happiness and companionship. I have liberated my spirit into a free thinking and accepting mindset and I don't even consider myself a Christian anymore, after this weekend.
What am I? Strait up a Christ believer. I don't even think I'm a Christ Follower, but I believe. I am sure that it brings such a predicament, considering the back-and-forth posts I've had over the years. Especially in my last relationship. Oh how I seeked out Gods council for THAT. It was my single biggest life mistake, because I got THE MOST attached.
Please though, leave me comments, because I'm so confused now, and what I've believed since 2011 is slowly fading into something more...modern? I'm adapting ideas from my time as a Christian and making God more than what I've seen him as. I believe in God, heaven/hell, and that one day God will return and take those who believed to heaven and basically what Revelation says. I just...I don't want to even pick up a bible anymore. I almost got around to it, but now I'm so angry that this is a 50/50 chance of holding water and I cant accept a God like that.
As nice as the people I've met are, they're condemned to hell for their sexuality? No. Maybe other sins, of course, but not sexuality. I refuse to believe it. But HEY! That was my weekend and thoughts....If it offended you...Well, I don't really care. It comes across harsh, but I'm having a inner conflict and I cant find all the answers, I'm like 90% there, but not fully.
Feel free to comment any differing opinions, I earnestly want any you have about the topic of this post. Thanks for reading!