Sunday, September 14, 2014

We'll figure things out, right?

Well I haven't posted recently, not because things haven't happened (Oh things have happened...), but because I've been so busy with work and my personal life that I can't find the time or motivation to write again. Though the 50 WPM seem to stick around no longer how long I wait to write again, I appreciate that.

Well I better dive into things. Mikaela broke up with me.

Yeah...I know.

It was 3am so maybe that's a bad time to do that, but it was a really emotional moment and a Monday (or I guess Tuesday at that point?) the 25th of August. As far as I knew, we were doing great! She and I were happy, totally in love, and that was it. I mean, I don't know what else to say. I'm not going to outline the whole thing, because a lot has changed since then. I'm just giving you an update.

I don't want to make an overly emotional post, but I was completely caught off guard by this. If you think men don't cry, well thing again, I bawled my eyes out like a small school boy with no friends! I was begging God to tell me why, the reason behind it. I gave her my entire soul, heart, and loved her like she was the only person in the world, which she was for me. Maybe it was to much, to soon. Everyone wants to find "The One", I know I do, but maybe I was laying things on a little thick.

Even now, it'll be three weeks this upcoming Thursday that I haven't seen her. I wish I could give you guys more, but I will say this, I went to a healing service last Sunday and bridged the gap to why I have trust issues in relationships. I guess you're never done growing.

Mikaela and I have had other problems since the break up, but mostly that's just me letting the pain control me and I'm past that now. Mikaela and I are going to work on things and we'll see what happens. I am not sure how much she wants me to post on here, and I am not going to get myself in trouble again because of someone I posted online (trust me, you DON'T want to know).

Let's just say I love Mikaela and promised to not post unnamed status' on Facebook (YES I KNOW I'M AN IDIOT). We just got past that and God has worked on us both quite a bit.

I truly wish I could post more, but I don't know what else to say. I'm a single man again, work is going wonderful for me, but I have car problems (as most people do). Life is overall a blessing though. Sooo...yeah. Until next time!