We decided that, as food lovers, it's mandatory to have a cake date! SO WE DID! We went to The Cheesecake Factory and had a fabulous (and affordable) date! I had a most excellent time and we had fun and made more memories! We had some carrot cake cheesecake and the 30th anniversary cheesecake, which were grand!
Have I mentioned yet that I love Mikaela yet? No? (Shame on me!) Well I totally love her!! I am so happy that everything is lining up and my life is turning around. Wait, you don't know the news (Ooohh...It's good)!
So I had an interview at HV (you see my cleverness continue? I like it.) and it seemingly went great and they said they'd call me by the falling Thursday and I waited anxiously for a call, but when no phone call came, I was sad and was about to give up, but my dad suggested calling Friday morning to hear that I didn't get the job and know.
Well Friday came and I called and, to my surprise, the lady who interviewed me said Thursday was really busy and she didn't have time to call anyone, but wanted me to come in for a drug test! Needless to say, I went in and was officially offered a job!! My interview is this Saturday morning before my party!
I WAS FLOATING ON AIR!! I finally found something. ME! I WAS AND STILL AM SO HAPPY!!
So back on topic, I can see my life turning around! I like the church I'm attending, my girlfriend loves me, as I love her, and I got a 2nd job to help build my income! LIFE IS GOOD. I know some of you don't really believe in a higher power, but you can't deny that God exists after reading my posts about loss and hurt and love and power and growth! I mean, you could, but how could you knowing what I've been through?!
I have seen the face of pain, I have been to the bottom, even thought about ending everything, but something kept me alive, heart beating, and the smallest speck of hope still lit inside my heart, has brought me back! So I know it's hard to believe in something like a God as powerful and big as the one I believe in, but really look at what has kept me going. It wasn't my friends, my family, or even the things as material as my job or electronics.
It was the deepest feeling inside that this is wrong. It's not over.
So I believe that it's God who holds my future, and always shall, and who am I to take my life and tell God he can't have it? I've had my walk in sin and lived with no purpose, living in the shadow of others and sleeping in the most literal darkness you can imagine.
I'm done. I'm back on the right path, and I'm starting over, but this time I'm not going to stop. I'm going to fully give myself again and never pull back. I have this deeper purpose inside of me that I'm sitting on, but no longer shall I suppress the gifts I've been given, the purpose I'm meant to live, and the blessings I've refused to accept! I have a beautiful Christian woman who loves me and builds me up, wants to see me grow, and loves that I want that too.
I'm really trying to pick things up, both mentally and literally (my room is a bit messy, ha!) and I can see that it's not as easy as I'd hoped, but it doesn't mean I'll give up. NO SIR! I'm going the extra mile. Just don't expect to see posts about some extreme progress, but a slow build.
Well, I guess those are the big highlights. I'd hate to leave you without a really cheesy song, so enjoy the song below. Just remember, I'm going to grow, and things will be great on the other side, in fact, they already are.
(PS. Told ya it'd be cheesy)